| Last entry for today...lol, looking at the time, that sounds funny. Probably last entry for awhile. I'm going to the Dentist again on Wends to get afew teeth filled [he said my teeth didn't look too bad, and since I hadn't been in such a long time, I take that as a, "HOW THE HELL DID YOU ONLY GET THOUGHS TINY CAVIDIES IN 7 YEARS?!" Lol.
My brother is watching James Bond: Die Another Day in french right now. Bah. Anyway, I might be either going to my bros for the weekend [to his dorm], or he might be comming here. My mom has to take my bro back, and she doesn't want me to stay here alone. It'd be cheaper to just have him come stay here, because then she wouldn't have to get the dogs boarded and whatnot.
Been playing a vamp game again lately. I'm in the process of blowing up a warehouse. I really hate the Sabot bastards. They're just so annoying. But I like Jeanette better than the other chick...whatsherface. I can't remember. Mmmm...kinda bored, lonely, but I'm getting over it. I miss Ella alot, but...nothing I can do about that, is there? Atleast not for the time being.
Been thinking about College alot lately. I don't know...California or New York...lol, I can't decide. All I can think about right now is wanting to see Ella and hold her. I'm an asshole, and I know I probably have mixed emotions about almost everyone else I know, aside from Joey ofcorse. Oh, how I would love to take him and love him, that sexy hunk of a penguin...oh yes...lol, jk. Yea, I like...no, I love Ella. I know I miss other people at times, my exs and old crushes in paticular, but...it's different. If you have any idea what I mean, then good for you. I don't know how else to explain it. I guess it's kinda like the cat you've had all your life and the kitten you met one day at your friends house. If something happened to them, which would you miss more? Lol, I hope that made sense and didn't insult anyone. >.< I dunno! I should just shut up on the topic I guess.
Anywhoo, why is it that everyone seems to find someone at some point or another? I wish I'd go ahead and find my someone...or atleast not be so far away from them. I think I know who my "someone" is, but we both have issues with long distance relationships, and we'd rather wait till we're closer to actually start something - again. Call me crazy, but the things that stopped us before, hopefully, wont stop us again. I know I wont let anything stop me. I know some people who might try to stop us - again - but you know me, I'm a stubborn ass. When I get something I REALLY want, I go after it. =P Believe it or not, alot of the things I'm doing right now, in one way or another, are for her. They're for me as well, so I can be happy, but they involve her in a way, and hopefully in a way that will make her happy and not just be me being a total idiot and the things, which seem completely ovious and true, and her repeating them to me because I still can't believe it and keep asking to make sure it's true, if thoughs things are lies, then...I dunno...I'm an idiot? That's all I can say I guess.
Anyway, I'll end this now, because...I'm tired and want to talk to Rin about her...lol, and yes, the above was about Ella. Meh, I'm crazy about her...anyway, hope everyone is having a great time. Maybe my life will turn around soon, eh? Ja ne. |
